In the past two weeks I didn´t just fall off the wagon, I took a flying leap! My days were full of chocolates, biscuits, McDonalds, Chinese, pizza. You name it, I had it. And loads of it! And all the time I was fully aware of what I was doing, but I just didn´t stop. I simply kept sabotaging myself. Can anybody tell me why, because I just don´t get it. I stept on the scales this morning, scared to keep my eyes open and of course it showed another gain of 4lbs. I should go to WI today, but I think I stuff it. We got family coming round for coffee and cake (more cake) this afternoon anyway.
I´m so pissed off with myself (excuse my language), I can´t put it into words. My intention is to make a fresh start tomorrow, hoping that´ll find my way again. But I´m very scared, too that I can´t stop this.
I don´t know what else to say.
Wish me luck